Thursday, November 19, 2015

Acceptance

Every day I think about picking up the phone to call you or text you or send you an email.  Every day that I don’t do it is one step forward for me since I know that any contact I have with you will be painful for me and give you power.  And I’m getting stronger every day, knowing that sometimes my life is better.


But knowing these things doesn’t mean I can automatically stop loving you.  I can’t.  And I hate myself for loving you, knowing what you put me through.  I accept that I will never know the answers, but I wish you could have one hour of truth in our whole relationship and answer my questions.  I know it would never happen because you lie to yourself as much as you have lied to me.

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