Just like the song
says...if love is really forever, I'm a winner at a losing game. I'm
a winner at a game that I don't think I will ever have the strength to join
again. All of my strength goes to trying to stay optimistic about life,
and all of the great things that are a part of that. I don't have
anything left to play the game again. But at least I know that
once upon a time I was able to love fully, trust fully, and commit fully to the
ones who I never thought would leave me. I could never believe they could
leave since my love for them was strong enough to move mountains. I didn’t understand hate and loathing that
would decimate that mountain. From the
people who were my world. So even if it
never happens again, I am glad that I was able to experience it for as long as
I had it.
The relationships are
still a reality for me and probably will be forever. I finally
learned that, for me, a commitment to them isn't something that can just
disappear when one person says it's over. The commitment is just a part
of me...sometimes that's painful, but the memories of the love that I feel will
live on, even though the pain will never fade.
Still a winner....even if
it is at a losing game.
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