So I'm continuing my spravato and getting good results. I feel better, would have more energy if not for my sleep disorder, and have stopped feeling suicidal thoughts. Even with my agoraphobia, I went to the grocery store briefly by myself for the first time in years. And I got my driver's license after six years! I start once a week next week and hope I continue to feel better with fewer treatments.
I have to give a shout out to my daughter and son-in-law. They pay for my copays for all of my psych appointments to get the spravato, along with providing me with transportation since I can't drive, and it's a long trip each way. If they aren't able to take me, then they pay for an Uber which is also expensive. They are so supportive.
And again a shout out to them both for my teeth situation. I used to have beautiful teeth, but years of medication, dry mouth, no dental insurance, no money for treatment, physical conditions that cause a lot of nausea/vomiting, my teeth have gotten horrible to the point that I can't eat much, and I never open my mouth around people. I can't even smile now that I feel like it sometimes because my jagged front teeth cut my lip. I only smile with my grandson.
My daughter and son-in-law are paying for me to get all the work done to have better teeth. It's going to cost between $2,500 and $3,000. I told them I will try to pay them back a little at a time as I can, but money is so tight. It will take about 2 1/2 months and eight appointments. The first one will be really painful as I'm getting my top four teeth pulled. Ugh. Just the shots in the roof of the mouth will hurt so much, but it will be worth it. I'm also getting six fillings, bone grinding, and upper and lower partial dentures. It's overwhelming, but I hope by Christmas I will be able to smile and eat. Going to be hard to eat without top front teeth for two months as I also don't have any molars right now. I'm not worried about how they look since they look so bad right now. This could be a life changing experience for me, and I am so grateful to them.
I'm also a little anxious about my babysitting my 10 month old grandson. I have been babysitting him since he was born, but mainly from 4:00 a.m. till about 11:00 a.m. most days which works great with my sleep disorder. But now I will be babysitting about 3-4 days a week during the day for about 10-12 hours at a time Now that he is mobile, I am worried about keeping him occupied and entertained. My mom will be helping on some days when she can. And I get so tired late in the afternoon, but being with him helps keep me alert and happy so I am glad to do it. Especially since my daughter and son-in-law do so much for me. They, along with my mom, are pretty much my entire support system.
So, that's where I am. Usually I post these blogs to pages, but I don't think I will this one so nobody may read it, but I just wanted to get my thoughts down. So many of posts have been down that it is nice to post something positive. Keeping my thoughts up about continuing to improve.
Thanks for reading.
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