Hi all. Just an update. Had a rough couple of weeks. My stupid CNP psych terminated me for no good reason and left me hanging out to dry without my spravato treatments or medications. I was so fucking pissed. I wanted to get back at her in every way I could.
I took some time so I didn't act impulsively like I am prone to do. Luckily I found a new psychiatrist (a real one this time) who seems pretty cool. She is getting me back on my spravato as soon as we can get the medication approved. And she immediately sent in prescriptions to get me back on my medications that I missed. She also changed my anxiety medicine from the useless low dosage valium on back to the xanax that worked, and I am already noticing a difference.
I have decided to just let things go with my previous CNP. It just isn't worth it to me, although it just kills me that she is getting away with all of this. But it isn't worth my mental health to fight this battle. I just want to move on to a better place.
And speaking of a better place, had a great Christmas (belated) with Mom, Kassi, Martin, and Logan. Went out for breakfast then back to our place for gifts and such. So nice. Mom and I babysat Logan that afternoon, and Kassi and Martin left for a few hours. They came home with a BRAND NEW CAR for Mom and me. Ours has been broken down for a while and is always on the verge of not running so they decided to do this for us. No words can express our gratitude and love for this incredibly generous gift.
So all around things are pretty good. I know I will feel better once I get back on the spravato, but until then I am just holding things together and trying to be positive. Hope all is well for everyone.
