Since starting my blog I realized that I mostly post when I am in a depressive episode. I find that on the rare occasions that I feel more positive I am less likely to post. I am changing that with this post.
As anyone who follows my blog knows, I have Bipolar II and have been in a medication resistant depressive episode for almost three years. This is compounded by Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, a Severe Sleep Disorder, and a few physical problems. I didn't know what happy felt like. It had been too long.
Since starting my Spravato medication treatments I have noticed a big change. Previously, whenever I felt down, I knew my depressive episode was crashing even further. One of the big differences I have realized now is that I can tell the difference between a depressive episode and just a bad day or two. That is huge for me.
For the first time in a long while I can smile and laugh with my mom, my daughter, and my baby grandson. I can leave the house for short periods of time. I can interact more. Hell, I even got my driver's license. What a change a simple medication can make in my life. I felt that I had tried everything, every medication, every treatment. Then I found Spravato. It is not a magic cure, but it is starting to make a profound difference in my life.
I owe this to my daughter and son-in-law who make it possible for me to receive my treatments by paying for them and making sure I have transportation since I am not allowed to drive myself due to the after effects. Without their help, I wouldn't be able to do this. People around me started noticing a difference even before I did. They pointed out to me how I was acting and the changes that had occurred.
So I just wanted to share with people that there is hope. I'm not saying my way is the only or even the best way. Just an alternative. I had almost lost hope. I had lost my way. I may not have found it yet, but I think I am on the right path, finally.
